I am getting bored,
I felt that I should do something but not sure what I could do,
I have a feeling that I will not get the top for my science,
Have a feeling of failing my N'Level English.
Have a feeling of can't get into Higher Nitec.
I knew that study can't be last minutes,
But what can I do?
I almost complete my Secondary4 life,
But would not want to regret,
Maybe just tolerate for just 1 month,
And i could just break free,
To enjoy my holiday,
I know that right now I should study,
But it just so boring,
Knowing that it is possible,
I could push myself further,
But I am trying not to push myself to hard,
Or I will turn mad,
Knowing that by pushing myself too hard,
Will affect the recovery of my hand,
What should I do?
It just the last lap,
Before the finishing line,
If I give up right now,
I am wasting this four years,
I do not want it to go to waste,
This four years thing have change alot,
From Archery I gain alot,
But it started the pain that I have from the old injury,
10 years have past,
Looking at the scar,
Reminds how playful I am,
Especially when I was young,
Sorry that I have cause too much trouble,
All this troubles causes you all to worry,
The reason I cried is not to get attention,
But it because I have a heart to change myself,
To a better me,
People said that I am soft hearted,
I do agree,
I do understands that the lectures that parents gave,
Are to make me a better person,
They want us to change and become better,
Just that we do not understands,
Mom, I am sorry that I have made you worry all the time,
I knew that every time i when back late,
you get worry,worry about the danger that I was about to face,
Mom, I know that you care about me,
Without giving me too much pressure,
Trusting me that I will not turn bad,
But you must understand that I want my friends to change,
From good to bad,
I know that you do not want me to turn bad,
But if I want to turn bad,
I will eventually,
Mom, I know that I am just abit boyish,
Just because I hate whiners,
And just girls whin a lot,
Even time when my arm hurt,
I did not complain,
Just because I do not want you to worry,
I cried because I am worry about the condition of my hand,
Especially when my whole palm get numb,
Especially thinking that I will lost this hand,
因为我真得很担心，
我的手会带给了你麻烦，
平不是我不要说，
但我不想要你担心，
因为你实在太忙碌，
我知道你担心，
我才不告诉你，
妈，你真的好伟大。
你是我心目中的好榜样。
你想办法不让我受到压力，
让我开心快乐，
想办法让我得到最好的，
妈，我真得很对不起，
不是特意要瞒阻你，
不把心事说出来，
可是我不喜欢把自己的心事用话说出来，
而习惯在布落格（blog）表达自己的心事。
妈，对不起。
Yesterday, I had a sleepless night,
Because my hand hurt,
I was thinking about a lot of things,
That makes me so tired,
I regretted that I had fracture this hand,
That had recently brought me to a lot of problem,
I do understand that my act makes me offend a lot of people,
Because of my hand,
A lot of teacher now care about me,
Even Mrs Raja,my school principal.
This had almost turn me into a teacher's pet,
Because I am curious to learn,
Especially to learn in school,
A lot of people might thing that I am easy-going,
This is just because I want to make myself happy,
In order for this to happen,
I do a lot of voluntary work outside,
That make me came home late,
I know that there a room in my heart for people who needs it,
Although my homework is not very good,
Especially in language,
I want to help more people,
Especially people that had suffer in war,
Because of this,
This dream urge me to become a photographer,
But this will remains a dream,
A dream that it will not to be fulfill,
Until my hand have fully recover,
I always had wanted to travel around the world,
To help people in need,
I also idolize those people,
Even though they are unfortunate,
They still can smile on their face,
This is what I always wanted,
I want to learn about the sprites that they had,
To be happy always,
Just because that I am soft hearted,
I will cry,
I want myself to be strong once again,
I know I will succeeds.
Off for dinner
Will continued once free.
~sign off~*Eating Away*
fell in love with music @ Friday, September 18, 2009
