Arghh can't bear again,
The idoitic non-stop pain,
Wanting to go back for my check-up now,
The numbest on my finger sucks,
The pain sucks,
Stupid nerve problem,
Can't even make have my strenght to preservere,
Eww can feel the numbest again,
Blame on myself for that stupid fall that i had,
The stupid operation that cut the nerve,
Nowadays causing alot of problem,
It's more than expected,
Hate myself for falling 10 years ago,
Causing alot of problem now and there,
Can't even cry infront of somebody because of the pain,
Later they thought that they had bully me again,
They do not feels the pain,
As they do not have a bad fall like mine yet,
Sign,
Why can't people but themself into other people shoes and feels the pain,
Seriously I don't want them to have the same fate as mine,
As in they fall of what so ever,
But why does the fate falls onto me,
The unlucky one,
True that there is a saying as not everyone is prefect,
Everyone had their flaws,
Oh ya,
Speaking of prefect and imprefect,
Yesterday watched a programme called World's Oldest Conjoined Twins,
It's about this pair of twins that is of age 57,
Since from when they were babies,
They were joined together,
They only have 1 stomach and one anus joined together,
But they wanted to have they own partner,
But with only one genital,
How are they going to differentiate they own babies,
But however they can't,
Back to the topic about my hand,
Sign can't stand or understand the system of my hand at the current state,
There is no cure,
Sigh what Should I do,
Even X-ray or other things don't show the problem,
Even when for nerve test,
No problem,
Even went to the chinese physician,
Can't help,
I am totally hopless now,
What could I do,
Even chopping of my arm won't help,
Should I just fix on a subsitute of this hand and chop this hand off,
But knowing that when I chop off my arm,
People will want to understand me,
I do not want them to care so much on me,
Neither want them to treat me as god,
I rather to be treat as no one,
Then being someone,
Being a human just lead to fight and stuff,
I rather remain silent,
I rather not stay on the earth,
But thinking of the more less fortunate people,
Like those in Haiti,
I felt that I should be happy living in Singapore now,
Even though it just the pain that I had,
Can't compare to them,
People in Africa suffers from hunger,
But do I,
No I don't,
But I just can't think of all those crap that I am suffering now,
It's up to god,
What he want to do to us,
We can't change the fate that god gave us,
But strive on it to achieve a better one,
So I cannot blame those that is less fortunate than me now,
Just strive in my studies,
Be it O'Level or ITE examination,
I just do my best in everything,
I just do not care if you hate me or anything,
I just do not want to care much about it now,
All I want is focus on my studies,
And carry-on at whatever challenge that is coming on to me,
Being a nobody isn't bad at all,
Despite at my strict looking face,
I might look firece but i won't eat you up,
But I don't actually like to critise other on my blog,
On my blog,
It's all about my life,
No about other's,
I don't care if their life suck or what,
It's still thier life,
It isn't mine,
What is it that I care about them,
Or even concern about them,
Or they do not feels that people just only want to give them just the concern that does not want anything in return,
No Motive,
And just because you are my brother,
I just want to share something with you,
Even if you don't care,
Or even act as if you care,
I just want to nuture you,
Seeing you day by day,
Can't I?
Days pass by and when on,
The meaning of life means to enjoy it,
Not to torture it,
Being your sister,
I just want to tell you I care about you,
And of course I know likewise,
But can't we just share eerything between us and no one?
I should stop here bah.
Sign off~~
fell in love with music @ Tuesday, March 09, 2010
