My old days are back,
Being back stabbed,
And no one want to give a helping hand,
Shall I be back to the days when i was back in secondary school,
To concentrate on my studies and not have fun,
Or to play and leave my studies to one corner,
Did a lot of thinking and felt that i shouldn't let bully on their run,
I must confront them instead,
But how am I going to change my freaking attitude,
To speak frankly,
I need to be modest,
I cannot show my side of being proud,
I cannot let myself be racist to others anymore,
But just to think of,
Why does so many things turn against me,
To speak the truth,
I need to stop everything that turn against myself,
I need to work to achieve a better grades,
But what I said would turn empty if i does not apply them,
Or rather just acted out,
I do not want to make empty promises,
Or rather I want to do what i could,
To serve by nature,
But to serve,
It not an easy stuff,
Neither to lead,
I had gotten myself to learn from what's right and what's wrong,
What I should do and what I shouldn't,
Everything you do might not start out right,
But does not mean every steps you take prove yourself wrong,
To me a lot of things turn into different form of theory,
But to say the truth,
I had experience way more bullying cases that happen,
Cases that happen to only me,
But I must not give up my life,
I must treat their word as a form to improve only myself,
To improve a better me,
I might be pushed easily,
But I must learn how to tackle it,
Every moment to me does mean something to me,
But this is what I done to make myself unforgivable,
But yes,
I do not harm anyone,
Neither wish that anyone would harm me,
I am a highly sensitive person,
I cried a lot when people hurt me,
Be it verbally or physically,
It's true that I am soft-hearted,
But what I gain from is,
There are no true friends,
Or rather friends you make are not forever,
On the road toward growth,
Some might be your foes,
Some might want to be with you for advantages,
The only true friends are those who cares for you,
Lend you a listening pair of ears,
Correct you when you are wrong,
What true friends does are meant for your good,
They do not harm you,
But in the process some might leave you,
I might have negative thinking but I know what I am speaking about,
All those words came with experience,
It's just to say or not to say,
But to speak the fact,
I had confronted a lot of people to turn good,
Only few are willing to,
But this came with a mindset to be good or not,
And to me,
In my life,
There is no try,
But only must,
Every time,
When the word try came to my mouth,
I would not do it,
But when the with the word must,
I will do it,
Even I know that thing might fail,
I know every failure leads to experience,
And experience leads to success,
I might keep everything to myself,
But instead,
I want to blog it down,
To show that I had encounter before,
But to sum up,
Living things have feelings,
It need not to be a pleasant one,
But everything will be added into memories,
Every words might not be the same,
But it might be similar,
But it does not meant that one can be bully,
Everything add up to hatred,
I might not know when am I hurting someone,
But you might try and stop me directly,
I don't mind,
I need to pull up myself,
Not to be easily blown by the winds,
I must concentrate on what I do,
And don't get distracted,
I have a dream to make myself a better one.
fell in love with music @ Monday, June 21, 2010
